Just know that I will be here... for you

26th June' 2009

"You see this world has lots to offer,

but in time we'll go talking if this love is what we say it is

I'm sure we will go far

and with a girl as sweet as you

there's not much I can do

but fall for you..."

~~~~~~~~~~

I'll always be here regardless of it all.

...you should know who you are by now.

<3

McJammy ~~~~out!

CHILL

Currently Listening To : My Favorite Highway - Bigger Than Love

The long awaited getaway weekend came by ever so swiftly. It didn't came to my direct senses that 3-weeks has gone by. 5 more weeks and I'm back for more grueling contest. Wow! Maybe summer is just too short? Haha! Owh well...

So, this trip to Cameron Highlands kicks-off a series of mouth-watering weekend trips to come! I'll be up in Genting Highlands this coming weekend. On to S'pore for the following weekend. "Lastly," I'll be in East Malaysia - Sarawak, my hometown - for the first 2 weeks of July. I guess that just means my weekends are all out. For those of you who haven't catch me, take note yea? ;) Only weekdays. Haha!

Anyway, I guess it's fair to say that my family goes up there once annually. I'm pretty sure if it was much nearer, my parents would love to CAMP there more often during the year. But yes, I've been there for countless times and there's really nothing much to say about it besides the perfect serene atmosphere all we city-folks desperately need. Seriously, we really need to learn how to CHILL - actions speaks louder than words? In our daily conversation, we often come across the overrated ah beng saying, "Chill la..." Familiar much? Well, maybe the modern saying would probably be, "Take a chill pill. Chillax?" But, how many of us actually really "practice what we preach?" Probably, how many of us are actually ALLOWED to do so will be a better question? To actually take a day or two off just to relax and spend some real quality time with the family (or whoever closest).

See, I often second the idea of having a getaway to wherever for a break. A break away from the hectic city-life we experience on a day-to-day basis. It's amazing how we could survive (or rather endure) such hectic-ness for such a long-period of time without a proper break from this modern in-demand world. Personally, the idea of working and just blow my mind; what more, actually doing it? Haha.

Well, if you happen to fall into the infamous group of people who "desperately wants, but not allowed to" have a break from whatever you're doing, too bad? But, for those who could actually work around that busy schedule of yours, let me just "advice" you to be sure to do the above mentioned to "recharged" and get back into whatever you're doing a fresher and better candidate. I'm very sure it helps in one way or another - maybe not so significantly?

I always thank God for His infinite blessings. Direct and significant blessings such as placing me in such a fortunate and above average family who could actually afford to enjoy such privilege as going on a holiday trip. I consider such as a privilege rather than something we deserve cos I do think even a factory worker deserves a holiday trip. Thus, a privilege is what I considered these weekends getaway as. I could imagine otherwise...

Anyways, I should prolly not drag this any longer but go straight to the point. Enjoy all given "privilege" given from up above. Make the most of it and be sure to use it to your benefit. To me, it makes me fresher and a better thinker whenever I get such breaks. It just gives me that extra cutting edge to work on any given tasks. Hence, liking "time to time" breaks rather than a one-go LONG breaks.

To conclude, breaks are essential towards our daily lifestyle. It helps bring a better person out of ourselves when there's fresh-ness in us. So, fellow readers, take a chill pill, chillax!

Before I end, here are some pictures I took over my trip to Cameron Highlands. Hope it's pleasing unto your eyes as much as it does to mine.

Happy weekends! :)

BOH Tea Plantation

My beloved parents.

:)

My Snowman.

:D

He actually threaten to SUE me just because I "stole" a few shots of his hensam face.

=_='

Great companies.

"Highest" spot in the entire Cameron Highland.

One of my personal favorite of the entire trip.

Comments?

Random Macros.

Bharat Tea Plantation.

Tea workers.

My emo snowman.

:p

Charcoal steamboat!

2 in 2 night.

Jealous much?

:D

McJammy ~~~~out!

Benefit of a doubt?

Currently Listening To : Black Eyed Peas - I Gotta Feeling

We often ask ourselves "Why must be give in?" "Why can't the world just revolve around us instead?" "Why must things turn out this way and why not the other way around?"

Why this? Why that?

Ever take the extra step BACK and wonder, why NOT?

I often call myself a "real-ist." I made my point straight and, if possible, THE status quo. I like things that goes my way; hate it otherwise. Enjoy complacency, despise difficult and tedious task. Well, that's me. I know my flaws. But let's admit it? Who doesn't? See, the unfortunate truth is that, we live a very "regretful" life. Well, probably not ALL of us, but I dare say, majority of us. No? Almost every single one of us, if asked, will like to turn back the clock to a certain period of time in life and "relive" from then onwards again. Some might deny, but it's true. Quite frankly, I personally wish I could turn back the clock. The power to relive certain significant and precious moments while at the same time, hope to change the bad ones. But, will that make us who we are today?

I still remember there was once in a Bible class when a much elder friend of mine asked, "Jeremy, would you like to turn back the time if ever given an opportunity to?" I took a while to comprehend his questions - subconsciously wondering if it was a trick question. I took about 10 seconds and finally, I answered, "No. Would you?" He gave me a tricky eye brown and proceed on by being the devil's advocate and came up with another question, "Why not?" I gave another good thought to it and answered him fearlessly with another question, "I honestly can't imagine myself apart from who I am today. Without everything falling into place and happened the way it did, will I ever be the Jeremy I am today? Plus, seeing where I am today, I don't think I would ever want to change anything." Almost instantly, he replied, "Well, you're only 18! But I'm almost 3 times your age!! What'd you think from MY point of view?"

Well, that's a pretty tricky question, don't you think? This morning, I went down to have my breakfast while my mum was watching a Singaporean drama series - it was the conclusion episode. In a 1hr concluding episode, there were 3 different sorts of ending - each varies largely from one another. The first conclusion went by - everyone died except him. He wished that it didn't happen. And so, time turns back to where he wanted it again. This time round, everything ended quite similarly (everyone died) but in a more cruel and unimaginable circumstances (good directing, btw). He once again didn't like how things turned out and eventually made the same wish over again. And so, we go back to 2 years ago... again. This time round, he did what he personally thought was right - trying to change the future - and sacrifice HIMSELF instead of hoping and waiting for everything to fall together. And long and behold, that was the best ending among the 3.

I was intrigued by the director's thought while writing the manuscript of the entire drama. Did he wish that he could change his future, too? Haha! That's probably the best explanation? I don't know about you, but to me, if we were allowed to change the future, what's the point of living then? Doesn't it give you that "spoiler" feeling that we earnestly HATE before we watch a movie? I thought it was a good reminder to us all that no matter how many time we relive a particular moment, there's no such thing as a fairy tale ending. In truth, there's always positive and negative outcome. It's what I personally like to call the "yin-yang effect." If everything's perfect, heck, nothing will ever go wrong then? Where's the thrill in living?

Whenever things happened - regardless of whatever it might be - it does help if you would take a wise step back and understand the situation before being judgmental. The immediate reactions/responses that come directly to you should never be "if only..." Instead, it should be "Why not?" It's not natural, but believe it or not, it serves as an "instant comforter."

I personally struggle with moving on and often times, I wish I could change how things turned out. But hey, if those presumably "bad/negative" things didn't happened to me, would I ever think the way I currently do?

Life is about living to the fullest - not with regrets. My wise uncle often tell me, "If I were to go today, I'll go with a smile. The last thing I want to is to leave this world telling my friends how I wish I did this, I did that..." It makes perfect sense to me. Forget the past, look to the future. No guilt, no bondage. Only the future ahead of us. I never believe in predestination. God never send us to this world without free will. It's all in our hands. Decision making is vital and ever decision made brings us to a whole new level of options. There's no sin in one's past dark/bad enough that God cannot forgive. 10 years down the road, you would probably have a much clearer picture and understanding why certain things happened the way it did 10 years ago. Then, you would laugh it off and probably say, "My God is a funny God."

Live life to the fullest. Forget about looking back, look to the future and hopefully & prayerfully, you would do things the right way this time round?


p/s: The above mentioned was my reply to my "elder friend" aka Bible lecturer. He was impressed.



McJammy ~~~~out!

“Growth means change and change involves risk, stepping from the known to the unknown.”

Currently Listening To : 卓文萱 - 爱的城堡


Still remember him?
;)

That's growth - well, sorta. He's prolly much girly these days, but look on the bright side, at least he's got it going now with his first "budget" single out and, hopefully, wooing the crowd. :)

Well, if you haven't know, I'm currently back home in Malaysia for the next 2 months of my summer break. It had been almost 2 weeks now just running up and down the state, catching up with all the peepz that made my life interesting all these while. Honestly, it sure feels good to be home - to be back to where I personally belong. Most importantly, back to my comfort zone in which I cherished and missed for the past 8 months.

A lot have change ever since I left this country. It ranges from regular routines to appearance as well as attitudes of every single individual. I'm not entirely sure if it's all for the goods but there's one thing for sure - there's GROWTH. I can't help but to realize how much everyone else has grown and matured over the past 8 months. In fact, is 8 months really THAT long?! Uhmm... I wonder.

But, according to the great John C. Maxwell, “If we're growing, we're always going to be out of our comfort zone.” Thus, I presume it's a good thing? Everyone that I've met in the past 2 weeks impressed me in some way or another with their "new" self. Some of which just blows me away with their maturity and understanding. However, I'm not a fan of singling out anyone but I'm gonna just go ahead and single out my dearest eldest brother - my fatty - for "maturing the most in the past 8 months."

See, he might looks like an aggressive individual with his intimidating physical features, but if you look back and analyze his past, you would prolly NOT want to be anywhere close him cos' it's true that he's pretty darn intimidating. Yes, it's true that he was once the troublemaker. Matter of fact, probably the one and only troublemaker in CAOG. Every fight involves him; every negative event has his name written all over it. But today, he wakes up at 7am every morning - regardless of what time he sleeps the previous night - and drag his sorry ass to Batu Cave and start his daily responsibility, work. I love the fact that he realizes and admit to his flaws and weak points. You don't need to remind him how dumb he is, he knows. That's my elder brother. But you see, amidst that "lousy person" lies a burning heart who wants to impress others. Not only towards his immediate family, but to the world. So what if one's not book-smart, right? Bill Gates' a drop-out himself. Not to mentioned, even George W. Bush suffered similar fate. But look where are they now?

Like the famous Adidas tag-line says, "Nothing is impossible; impossible is nothing." My fatty might not noticed it but I strongly believe that he personally lives his life based on that particular motto. Why'd I say so? Simply because he's afraid of practically nothing! (Only ants... Maybe?) Yes, and that includes failure. My mummy always tell me how thick skin he is, but hey, guess what? I WISH I WAS AS THICK SKIN AS HE IS! Criticism never stops him from progressing, while failure never cease his burning desire. Of course, there's a strong woman behind every "successful man." I can't thank my sista-in-law enough for changing that fatty to who he is today. Sometimes I wonder what is actually driving her to be able to love that fats so much? Uhmmm... Well, I guess that's for them to know, and for me to find out.

So, what made me said all of the above mentioned? Growth. I'll always remember what he did on Thursday night when he walked in to my room at 2am at night - everyone was well asleep - when he gave me a mere RM200 telling me this, verbatim, "Your brother is now working. This is for you." in the most humble of tones. What I'm trying to say is, it's not the RM200 that matter to me. Instead, it was the care and love that silently came with that RM200. He wants to be the perfect elder brother. He wants to be the perfect MAN of the family after my dad. And guess what? I think he already is despite all his flaws.


All it takes was 8 months to change a man. That's the "power" of growth.

That's only the story of my fatty. I can't tell you guys how proud I'm of every single one of you guys - stepping up and constantly working on your flaws, striving to be a better person. I see changes in everyone of you. Even the closest. I know it's only going to get better from here on as I look to continue my study abroad for the remaining 3 years. This time, probably with no more surprises.

Never give up on who you are. Jeffrey, my fats make it through the hard way to where he is today. Not high and tall enough, yet, but I'm sure he'll make it big someday. There's potential in him. Not to mentioned, God rewards the one that never gives up! You might be down, but you're never out as long as you keep trying.

At the risk of sounding like an old wise man, trust in who you are. Never stop trying. Never stop... growing.



McJammy ~~~~out!