“Growth means change and change involves risk, stepping from the known to the unknown.”

Currently Listening To : 卓文萱 - 爱的城堡


Still remember him?
;)

That's growth - well, sorta. He's prolly much girly these days, but look on the bright side, at least he's got it going now with his first "budget" single out and, hopefully, wooing the crowd. :)

Well, if you haven't know, I'm currently back home in Malaysia for the next 2 months of my summer break. It had been almost 2 weeks now just running up and down the state, catching up with all the peepz that made my life interesting all these while. Honestly, it sure feels good to be home - to be back to where I personally belong. Most importantly, back to my comfort zone in which I cherished and missed for the past 8 months.

A lot have change ever since I left this country. It ranges from regular routines to appearance as well as attitudes of every single individual. I'm not entirely sure if it's all for the goods but there's one thing for sure - there's GROWTH. I can't help but to realize how much everyone else has grown and matured over the past 8 months. In fact, is 8 months really THAT long?! Uhmm... I wonder.

But, according to the great John C. Maxwell, “If we're growing, we're always going to be out of our comfort zone.” Thus, I presume it's a good thing? Everyone that I've met in the past 2 weeks impressed me in some way or another with their "new" self. Some of which just blows me away with their maturity and understanding. However, I'm not a fan of singling out anyone but I'm gonna just go ahead and single out my dearest eldest brother - my fatty - for "maturing the most in the past 8 months."

See, he might looks like an aggressive individual with his intimidating physical features, but if you look back and analyze his past, you would prolly NOT want to be anywhere close him cos' it's true that he's pretty darn intimidating. Yes, it's true that he was once the troublemaker. Matter of fact, probably the one and only troublemaker in CAOG. Every fight involves him; every negative event has his name written all over it. But today, he wakes up at 7am every morning - regardless of what time he sleeps the previous night - and drag his sorry ass to Batu Cave and start his daily responsibility, work. I love the fact that he realizes and admit to his flaws and weak points. You don't need to remind him how dumb he is, he knows. That's my elder brother. But you see, amidst that "lousy person" lies a burning heart who wants to impress others. Not only towards his immediate family, but to the world. So what if one's not book-smart, right? Bill Gates' a drop-out himself. Not to mentioned, even George W. Bush suffered similar fate. But look where are they now?

Like the famous Adidas tag-line says, "Nothing is impossible; impossible is nothing." My fatty might not noticed it but I strongly believe that he personally lives his life based on that particular motto. Why'd I say so? Simply because he's afraid of practically nothing! (Only ants... Maybe?) Yes, and that includes failure. My mummy always tell me how thick skin he is, but hey, guess what? I WISH I WAS AS THICK SKIN AS HE IS! Criticism never stops him from progressing, while failure never cease his burning desire. Of course, there's a strong woman behind every "successful man." I can't thank my sista-in-law enough for changing that fatty to who he is today. Sometimes I wonder what is actually driving her to be able to love that fats so much? Uhmmm... Well, I guess that's for them to know, and for me to find out.

So, what made me said all of the above mentioned? Growth. I'll always remember what he did on Thursday night when he walked in to my room at 2am at night - everyone was well asleep - when he gave me a mere RM200 telling me this, verbatim, "Your brother is now working. This is for you." in the most humble of tones. What I'm trying to say is, it's not the RM200 that matter to me. Instead, it was the care and love that silently came with that RM200. He wants to be the perfect elder brother. He wants to be the perfect MAN of the family after my dad. And guess what? I think he already is despite all his flaws.


All it takes was 8 months to change a man. That's the "power" of growth.

That's only the story of my fatty. I can't tell you guys how proud I'm of every single one of you guys - stepping up and constantly working on your flaws, striving to be a better person. I see changes in everyone of you. Even the closest. I know it's only going to get better from here on as I look to continue my study abroad for the remaining 3 years. This time, probably with no more surprises.

Never give up on who you are. Jeffrey, my fats make it through the hard way to where he is today. Not high and tall enough, yet, but I'm sure he'll make it big someday. There's potential in him. Not to mentioned, God rewards the one that never gives up! You might be down, but you're never out as long as you keep trying.

At the risk of sounding like an old wise man, trust in who you are. Never stop trying. Never stop... growing.



McJammy ~~~~out!