Currently Listening To : Black Eyed Peas - I Gotta Feeling

We often ask ourselves "Why must be give in?" "Why can't the world just revolve around us instead?" "Why must things turn out this way and why not the other way around?"
Why this? Why that?
Ever take the extra step BACK and wonder,
why NOT?
I often call myself a "real-ist." I made my point straight and, if possible, THE status quo. I like things that goes my way; hate it otherwise. Enjoy complacency, despise difficult and tedious task. Well, that's me. I know my flaws. But let's admit it? Who doesn't? See, the unfortunate truth is that, we live a very "regretful" life. Well, probably not ALL of us, but I dare say, majority of us. No? Almost every single one of us, if asked, will like to turn back the clock to a certain period of time in life and "relive" from then onwards again. Some might deny, but it's true. Quite frankly, I personally wish I could turn back the clock. The power to relive certain significant and precious moments while at the same time, hope to change the bad ones. But, will that make us who we are today?
I still remember there was once in a Bible class when a much elder friend of mine asked, "Jeremy, would you like to turn back the time if ever given an opportunity to?" I took a while to comprehend his questions - subconsciously wondering if it was a trick question. I took about 10 seconds and finally, I answered, "No. Would you?" He gave me a tricky eye brown and proceed on by being the devil's advocate and came up with another question, "Why not?" I gave another good thought to it and answered him fearlessly with another question, "I honestly can't imagine myself apart from who I am today. Without everything falling into place and happened the way it did, will I ever be the Jeremy I am today? Plus, seeing where I am today, I don't think I would ever want to change anything." Almost instantly, he replied, "Well, you're only 18! But I'm almost 3 times your age!! What'd you think from MY point of view?"
Well, that's a pretty tricky question, don't you think? This morning, I went down to have my breakfast while my mum was watching a Singaporean drama series - it was the conclusion episode. In a 1hr concluding episode, there were 3 different sorts of ending - each varies largely from one another. The first conclusion went by - everyone died except him. He wished that it didn't happen. And so, time turns back to where he wanted it again. This time round, everything ended quite similarly (everyone died) but in a more cruel and unimaginable circumstances (good directing, btw). He once again didn't like how things turned out and eventually made the same wish over again. And so, we go back to 2 years ago... again. This time round,
he did what he personally thought was right - trying to change the future - and sacrifice HIMSELF instead of hoping and waiting for everything to fall together. And long and behold, that was the best ending among the 3.
I was intrigued by the director's thought while writing the manuscript of the entire drama. Did he wish that he could change his future, too? Haha! That's probably the best explanation? I don't know about you, but to me, if we were allowed to change the future, what's the point of living then? Doesn't it give you that "spoiler" feeling that we earnestly HATE before we watch a movie? I thought it was a good reminder to us all that no matter how many time we relive a particular moment, there's no such thing as a fairy tale ending. In truth, there's always positive and negative outcome. It's what I personally like to call the "yin-yang effect." If everything's perfect, heck, nothing will ever go wrong then? Where's the thrill in living?
Whenever things happened - regardless of whatever it might be - it does help if you would take a wise step back and understand the situation before being judgmental. The immediate reactions/responses that come directly to you should never be "if only..." Instead, it should be "Why not?" It's not natural, but believe it or not, it serves as an "instant comforter."
I personally struggle with moving on and often times, I wish I could change how things turned out. But hey, if those presumably "bad/negative" things didn't happened to me, would I ever think the way I currently do?
Life is about living to the fullest - not with regrets. My wise uncle often tell me, "If I were to go today, I'll go with a smile. The last thing I want to is to leave this world telling my friends how I wish I did this, I did that..." It makes perfect sense to me. Forget the past, look to the future. No guilt, no bondage. Only the future ahead of us. I never believe in predestination. God never send us to this world without free will. It's all in our hands. Decision making is vital and ever decision made brings us to a whole new level of options. There's no sin in one's past dark/bad enough that God cannot forgive. 10 years down the road, you would probably have a much clearer picture and understanding why certain things happened the way it did 10 years ago. Then, you would laugh it off and probably say, "My God is a funny God."
Live life to the fullest. Forget about looking back, look to the future and hopefully & prayerfully, you would do things the right way this time round?
p/s: The above mentioned was my reply to my "elder friend" aka Bible lecturer. He was impressed.
McJammy ~~~~out!